Do I have to live with the fact that "NOthing will change"??
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Life is harsh, it always was and always will be ... You meet the right person at the wrong timing or meet the wrong person at the right time ... You wish to go to a certain place or get accepted in a certain position, but when you get both (the place and position), things happen that prevent you from being there... When you are in great need for something, you are deprived from it but when you don't need it anymore, it's abundant ... You get an opportunity that anyone would wish to get but something prevents you from having it ... You go to sleep everyday with the same image and voice in mind but wake up on the reality that it never was and never will be your right to have it ... You wait your entire life for something to happen and when it does, it brings all the possible hardships with it; your life just floods with pain and sadness... Everyone thinks you're happy just because you decided to smile and spread laughter; they can never measure your pain and struggle... Your decisions are never right; no one is pleased with anything you do or any conclusion you reach ... You keep on telling yourself "who cares?" but you notice that everyone cares ... You leave darkness just to fall into a darker one and keep on fooling yourself that light is about to arrive ... You wait for things to happen but they just never do and when you keep your mind off them, they happen when you are not prepared... You lullaby yourself with a tune that others listen to joyfully; they think that happy fellows are the ones with beautiful tunes, they just don't know that it's the sound of pain crashing inside of you.... You convince yourself of something but then the total opposite happens ... Things you expect to happen never do and things you are unaware of keep on appearing ....
Am I the only one that faces obstacles in almost everything ??
